another evening

so much to  do , so much time. but no opportunity . i sit here watching pointless movies or television shows. the empty echos on my walls. I feel like its enough to drive me crazy, I stay positive ( when im around people) but in the evenings  , alone, im  bored, lonely even. im tired of be bored, i would love to have something to do. I write this not to ask for your pity, or your well wishes. i dont even tell anyone about this blog. but i dont hide it either. how can someone be alone and not lonely?

Its just another friday!

Today the 9th of december, i awoke with a beautiful woman in my arms, had a late start on my work day , and did the weekly kid juggle with the ex. Not exactly a bad friday. Truth be told the changes i'd make with today i can count on one hand. The evening begins with the 5:30 marker and i will join my esteemed colleuge jason to a concert yet again! this will be the third with him, two Aperfect circle and now pucsifer. there seems to be a theme going on here . Regaurdless Ive been missing alot of music lately, everything from chromeo. the sounds , lil wayne ,kings of leon. black joe lewis and now the impending show for guns and roses in a few weeks. Hopefully the darkness wont sell out and i can once again feel good about knowing every song a band is going to play!.
     Anyway. moving soon, and i can see my weakness staring me direct in the eyes, laziness, i struggle to pack and i struggle to want to pack. my things are embodiments of myself , and i think that i fear seing my self boxed up , uncertain of when i will be seen again. Procrastination aside, im very excited for a new chapter in my life. so many emotions mixed in , all good non bad just nerves. im nervous for the kids , im nervous for my gal, im nervous for me. Having so many different personality traits im scared to see how quickly i show them , ( farting has been let out like beast emerging from pandoras box) .
       ok and ive vented. i dont know when i'l be back on here, my vlog is out for the time being since mojo ate the wire so hopefully my phone is easy t vlog from - if you're strange- B$